The Big Idea: Jennifer Brozek

A question that authors often ask themselves: Who am I writing this book for? For Never Let Me, a compilation volume of novels by Jennifer Brozek, the author discovered who she was writing her series for — which included, among others, a very specific set of people.

JENNIFER BROZEK:

My Big Idea hid from me until I finished writing the last book of the Melissa Allen series. The compilation, Never Let Me, encompasses Never Let Me Sleep, Never Let Me Leave, and Never Let Me Die. It also includes the new short story, “Never Let Me Feel.”

There were two motivating factors behind me writing the young adult novels starring Melissa Allen. The first was: Write what you want to read. In my not-so-humble mind, I liken Never Let Me to “What if Stephen King specifically wrote for teenagers back in the day?” I read a lot of King’s work growing up and loved it. Part of me always wondered what if he had written a story specifically for me as a teen? I pondered what I thought that would look like. Then I wrote it because that’s what I wanted to read.

The second factor was the need to write a flawed, mentally ill character whose mental illness didn’t make them a superhero or a villain. It just was. The illness was one more invisible, personal thing to deal with—like migraines or gastric reflux. Too many times, mentally ill characters are taken to unrealistic extremes—savant, dangerously wicked, innocent to the point of child-like—when, in reality, they are just normal people trying to get through the day. They are medicated, dealing with side effects, and know that even when the chemical cocktail is working today, it might not work tomorrow.

In specific, I watched daughter of one of my friends—her name is Cait—grow up fighting with her illness, dealing with the side effects, and sighing over the issues with her psychiatrist. I helped her as much as I could. I never thought it was enough, but I didn’t know what else I could do.

Cait stuck with me all these years, even after I moved away from her. I knew that she never had a mentally ill protagonist in any young adult book she’d read that she could look up to. I wanted to write this series for her, and for the other teens like her who struggle with mental illness on a daily basis. I wanted her to see the heroine in herself.

I never thought of myself as a heroine. Growing up, I had a lisp and a stutter. I went to three years of speech therapy to bring my speech into something much more acceptable. I’m dyslexic. Also, I am high-functioning autistic. I never saw a protagonist like me in any of the stories I read. For a long time, it didn’t occur to me that someone like me (or Cait) could be a hero. People like us weren’t heroes.

I wanted to change that. At first, it was just for Cait. She was the one I’d written the novels for. She was my ideal reader. Then, as I expanded the stories and the protagonists, I added a character for my mom. This character has a congenital defect in her hand like my mom. My mom didn’t have a hero like her to read about growing up. I thought she deserved one, too. In the end, when I sat back and looked at what I’d written, I realized my Big Idea.

I was the one I had written these novels for… because they were about people like me and about the everyday people around me. I wanted to see fictional heroes that mirrored the real life heroes I looked up to every single day of my life. Including the person I looked at in the mirror. She may have a stutter when she gets excited. She may rock when she’s tired. She may not always understand the expressions she sees on people’s faces. She may have bouts of anxiety… but she is still a hero.

Sometimes, we write the heroes we need to see in ourselves.

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4 thoughts on “The Big Idea: Jennifer Brozek

  1. Wow. I’m blown away by your insightful post. As I was reading, I had to apply your words to my latest book, Jolene, You’re Not a Monster. It’s a very personal book to me, even though I wasn’t created in a lab and I’ve never been a spy, Still, I grew up separated from the world as a Jehovah’s Witness. We weren’t allowed to associate with anyone not a Jehovah’s Witness unless we were preaching to them or had business with them. Jolene’s journey, though more exciting than mine was, mirrors my own escape from my confining existence to become my own person in the real world. I knew on some level that Jolene mirrored me, but I never saw my journey as heroic. I think I needed to write this book to understand what my spouse means when he says he’s always been impressed that I made it out and undid the brainwashing on my own.

    Thank you so much for this post. You’ve helped me a lot. “Sometimes, we write the heroes we need to see in ourselves.” This needs to be quoted often.

    Kacy

  2. Dang, too bad I couldn’t’ve read this when I was 12. I grew up in the 50’s, constantly stared at and completely invisible. Very weird way to be a kid. Reading about someone like me (who didn’t have some sort of miracle cure by the end of the book) would have been a Very Good Thing.

  3. Alternatively (growing up in the 50’s), being 2 meters tall (6′ 8″), skinny, not an athlete, so near-sighted I was damn-near blind and a ‘weird kid’ (what would, today, be diagnosed as moderate-severe Aspergers) – never invisible – an ‘only’ child, which meant that I had to be, simultaneously, and often retroactively, the Genius and the Stupid Kid … Mama’s good boy and the Always Bad kid … the Little Professor and the Inarticulate Looser, never ‘living up to potential’ ,,, a stumbling, shambling cartoon of what a ‘normal’ teen should look/act like.
    As of now, I LIKE being 73, retired, interracially married & having no friends – it simplifies things.

  4. Just finished reading this and I loved it. Read it pretty much straight through, except for sleeping and going to work. Well done and a fascinating main character.

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